Well… Here we are,
I am not obligated to write this but I am forced to by myself.
I wanted to make a presentation to show my appreciation and my condolences to oofoof. But I don’t think I can unfortunately bring the time to do that although I will try. And I wanna do it but I think to be honest I should do this too.
He was a good friend a very good one although younger was wiser than me. He helped with alot of stuff indirectly and he was among one of my favourite people.
And as I said once even if the entire world hates me even if a few stand with me they would be enough to make me happy. And he was one of those people.
So young yet so wise I kindof looked upto him. I respected him and liked his jokes. Once was a time I didn’t have the best impression of him but I do believe in forgetting and forgiving and he was the best example that I was right. Although I did spend alot less time with him than the others. He was a huge part of my life digitally at least.
Before if you had asked me whether I have ever lost anyone I cared about I would’ve said “thankfully no” but… Now I can’t say the same.
Man he meant alot to me. I have exams but today when I went to write it i.. got into deep thought and although I knew the answers of the questions on the paper I could… Write nothing. And soon 30 minutes had passed and I had only finished Q1. And had to complete the exam in the last hour that is how messed up my mind was.
When I got the news I was with my friends in a gaming cafe to celebrate one of my friends birthday. And when I got the message I was playing GTA 5 and that news just changed the meaning of all the starting dialogue for me.
After that we got some food and I held it in. But when we were on our way back home I was humming a song when one of my friends said:
“Tu itna depressed kyu lag raha hai?”
Which means “why are you looking so depressed”
And I said it was nothing.
…. Then I came back and it was real… I cried internally because that is the kind of person I am..
I loved when he used to make quizzes or investigations. And talking to him was magical. Everyday I was like “oofoof!”
Always happy when he was around. And now that he is gone I don’t know anymore.
And he also felt guilty for my “investigation” because it was too harsh according to him. Although it was a bit true after that the world India got banned and my speech was restricted and other stuff some would consider bullying but I never helt him responsible for that. In the presentation he never told anyone to take those “actions”.
Man overtime he grew on me,
Sorry if this was too sad and venting. I can’t say anything positive at this moment although I want to.
Although a very small tiny little part of me thinks it should’ve been me instead but I don’t want Nani to get after me.
But it’s ok… He will live in my heart I guess.
Goodbye oofoof and shall you rest in peace.
